Did a little something.



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http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/14616838/

Been looking for a nice broach to go with my check skirt but I had no idea where. My grandma just took out her collection and she gave me a really nice sliver flower. Very classy design and all it needs is polishing. I haven't worn broaches in like 10 years.

I'll be going back on my migrane pills. I think it's my eyes, straining too much. Been really stressed up. Can you believe that I had a dream where we were at someone's house full of computers doing animation? Yes. I need to knock my head on the wall.

Disappointed in my hair color. :( Ohmigosh...I'm listening to ryan cabrera. hmm?

The conversation that my mom and i have every yr before chinese new year has happened. 'What are you going to wear for chinese new yr?' New shirt and jeans. Her eyebrows raised, followed by 'why don't you wear this or that?'

I hate to have to conversation. She wanted me to wear a shirt which I wore once, still trying to figure out what can I wear it with to make it look better. Somehow, it looks terrible and I shouldn't have bought it in the first place. Followed by a check skirt. Last time I wore it, she felt it was too low and she wants me to wear during chinese new year. It's really stupid. Gathering at grandma's place is more like a competition. Who's smarter? Who's prettier? Who's better? It's a competition among the sisters. For every freakin' year, I have to compromise and wear a dainty skirt. *vomits*

I don't care about this year. I'm gonna wear what I wanna wear. It's fuckin' stupid to compare who's kids are fuckin' smarter or prettier or who's of higher grade.

So far the 3D modelling has been coming along quite well. Pretty pleased with the results but I have to make quite a few changes. Thinking of using these and make it into a flash to display them in deviantart. Thankfully, the deadline for acan has been moved to next friday. Sweet!

Watched an MTV Asian Aid last night. Tata Young going around in Thailand. Very nice place siah especially the shopping. I'm a sucker for street shops/markets. Till date, my favorite is 'The Rocks' at circular quay in sydney. A lot of arty farty stuff, handmade stuff and I just love the stuff there. Bargains and stuff. Maybe one day I should visit Thailand as soon as it's doing much better.

I wanna watch the Sydney Kings vs Perth Wild Cats! I have't been to a serious bball game before. I'm not too sure when is it or whether I have the time. Seems cool siah. Just like the NBA but slightly smaller. Hehe!!

I'm going crazy man. All the assignments! Audio is now rated as the worse. I enjoy the recording part. Know how it works and all but editing, it's another story. I don't get what the lecturer wants and I'm sitting there in front of the computer, wanting to do something but I don't. Honestly, I would rather do modelling. At least I know what I'm doing. Lesser people are coming for audio practicals. I don't blame them. Can easily fall asleep with the lecturer who is proud of his sexy (NOT!) voice. Sheez...

Yesterday I spent the entire day doing modelling, trying to be as detailed as I can. I'm so thankful to Boss for extending the deadline till thursday. You rescued me from geniuine insanity.

Today's digital life caught me eye. Canon EOS 1Ds Mark II. Beautiful piece that costs $14,799 (body only). Must be freakin' powerful! Somehow I'm contented with something else divded by 7. Nikon D70. My friend's bro has one. *envious* My time shall come when I earn enough money. Hee!

I'm loving Elektra OST. Cool tunes. The movie, it's ok. I just like their powers. Better get back to modelling, again!!

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I feel like I'm at that stage where I have to take care of myself as in eating right, right amount of exercise. Yesterday I got a good amount of sun but more like damages to skin yet getting vitamin D? I like to be tan. Only discipline I'm trying more is drinking that 8 glasses of water a day. Last time I could do less than 3 glasses and not feel thirsty. It's weird but I better master that habit. Eating right too...trying to get away from those hunger pangs. I know I'm getting lazier to put on moisturizer which I should. I'm not that kinda gal who puts on tons of moisturizer, just the right amount before bed. Here I am sipping down the 3rd cup of water in the morning. Feeling good about that...

I finished some of the building models but I find they suck. There is alot lacking and my group members agree. At the moment, having a mental block and it's hard to figure out what to do. Currently surfing around to see whatever inspiration i can find. So far, nothing. *groans*

Posting a question for you guys:
How do you handle verbal abuse?

My comp is up and running. Thanks to Zeren! I'm 512MB happier and I can get my stuff done. Assignments are seriously killing almost everyone. I've got to do modelling and animatics for acan, modelling for fyp. I think most of us took it for granted that we didn't follow the schedule the lecturer plan for us. Usually he'll drop the bomb a few days before and then all of us will start rushing. Luckily, the animatics only consist of the biped and we only have one character. Have to help Siti to do some modelling cos of the timing. Her comp's not working at home and it's a long weekend. Somehow I don't mind doing 3D stuff while alot of my friends are complaining about it. I just like it that I put it as my second choice. Weird eh? Need to get modelling done before sunday. Can concentrate the animatics on sunday. Squeeze in every free time I have. Mom's grumbling about cleaning the room before chinese new year. New year is coming but I see it more of deadlines of assignments. Sigh....

Lately, been getting small bites on my body. Itchy siah especially my legs. Wonder where I get them. Stupid cramp in my foot! Anyway, something to annouce. I'm in love with... Nikon D70. *glows*

Mee siam has caused me to cough like crazy!! On friday, I thought I tried something new at the malay stall in foodcourt 3. Why not mee siam? I like my friend's mom's mee siam. That was my first time. A little spicy but it cooled off after a while. For those who are unaware, i wasn't 'trained' from young to eat spicy stuff. So I get my bowl and the gravy was lava red. Maybe it could be the coloring. First sip. 'Woah! Spicy!'. Never mind, continue. After every sip, it was terrible. I was tearing but was determined to finish my noodles. When I finished, my friend told me my lips were red. It cooled off eventually. Then after my afternoon nap at home, my upper lip started burning and my throat was irritated. Coughing continued after that until now. I am so staying away from mee siam for a long, long while!! How do you guys eat these stuff man?

Went to the Australian Open House. First uni was ECU. My dad's intended uni and it sounded like a good uni to me. That became my first choice. There's no second, third cos I have been procrastinating in researching the other universities. Spoke with the guy and turned out that he was going to be the Deputy Dean of my 'chosen' faculty. My dad casually mentioned about me wanting to surf and he started telling me about the waves, his 13 yr old son who is a 6-footer. Yikes! He's an avid surfer himself. I applied for ECU, Bachelor of Design, 2D. Second choice is Bachelor of Design, 3D. Somehow I want to do design even though I'm not good at it. Some kind of instinct told me to go for it. Pretty satisfied about the decision. Hopefully I get in to this uni. Seems like a pretty good deal. Next, i better do some more research on the other uni and wait for the next open house in april.

The clouds has turned against me!! It has been so sunny for the past few days and now it's so cloudy!! I'm going swimming later and I was expecting to get a nice tan!!! Haven't got a decent tan in weeks!! This sucks! Seriously, why does it always rain on me?

I think there's something wrong with me. I've been clumpsy but for the past few days, I've been extremely clumpsy! I was carrying a box of biscuits and it slipped out of my hand, almost smashed my mom's oven. Yesterday, I kept banging into stuff. Simply unlucky or simply clumpsy? I don't know. I wish it'll stop.

Projects are slowly getting more of a headache. Working with new people, could be a terrible choice. Maybe I should narrow down to one person. Audio is booked. Really hard to get a slot just to sort out the files. Feel a little lost in the midst of everything. Don't know what to do.

Anyway, tomorrow's the Australian Open House. Wish me luck.

I was looking for the other end of my guitar strap a few minutes ago. Gave up on it. Search almost everywhere and plus i didn't want to get into the deeper ends. It sucks when you're looking for something and it ain't there. The things you don't need pops out. That happened. I found some stuff I was searching high and low for christmas. Arrgghh.

My computer is down. Nah...not completely. One beautiful day, my internet connection disappeared. It started with the LAN icon, then everything else. Now I'm using my dad's comp to surf and check my mail. I can't surf much cos his works on a dial-up. I'm like a spoilt brat cos I'm so used to broadband. But this is temporary. Main problem was actually the ram. 128MB. Pathetic eh? The way I'm using programs is terrible and I need more ram. Need to find out the model. Planning to add on a 512MB. Sucks again. I have to transfer some files too. Keeping new song titles in my phone for the meantime.

My left finger tips are alittle sore. Borrowed Justin's guitar which I had to be extra careful about it. Still don't get how he broke the tip. Somehow his strings are thinner than mine but like what Mick says, I haven't played for a long time which is quite true. I stopped playing for awhile since itp started. I feel guilty for leaving my baby alone in a corner. Not really leaving her. I played a few times but alot lesser than usual. Sigh...I'm going to sleep. Have to find the crowded bus battles in the morning. *yawn*

PS: My grandaunt is recovering. I feel like an idiot worrying so much but I'm not the only one. We still have to take precaution and she'll be discharged on friday. Still alot of stuff going on though.

Been out almost the whole day. Went swimming alone today after many days of bad weather. I pulled my calf muscle a few days back and it affected my breast stroke. Had severe cramps in the ankle and a 'pulling' in my left calf. Tried to take it easy but luckily, it didn't affect my freestyle. Looks like i might have to ice it down later.

Visited my grandaunt today. She looks better though i think she doesn't know what she's talking. I must have put something in her drip. She has the drip which means she's getting the necessary stuff in the body. I didn't want to look at her signing the documents though. Couldn't bear to look. The conversations were worse. She mentioned that the doctor recommended open heart surgery but didn't mention about the guarantee or chances. She's old and she's can't go round with an open chest. Gee! They told her if no surgery, see her again 48 weeks later. The nurses also don't changed/clean her that often. Makes her uncomfortable. I really don't know. For the moment, I'm happy to see her better but for later, i don't know. I feel guilty for picturing the worse senario. I try to prevent myself from doing that but it just hits me. Saw one malay family outside the ICU. Like the entire family was there. Most of them were crying. One lady was crying hard after she came out from the room. Walking past them, i could feel the pain.

I better start doing research and concept art. Need to pass my friend some sketches tomorrow. Forgot about it. At most, finished it by tomorrow morning. Use the weekend to do more concept art and modelling.

So many thoughts are going through my head. I don't know what to say, what to do. My grandaunt just got warded in SGH. She was having the flu before then and had problems eating. Either she refused to eat or it was just a health issue. It was only after my granduncle talked to her then she started eating better. Now, I don't know what's going on. Doctor says that there're signs of heart failure. I really want her to get better but the doctor says to prepare just in case. Can't he freaking hell do something at least? Why does this have to happen?

New year has arrived.

31 December 2004
I did a good deed and made a huge mistake today. My dad and i dropped off 5 bags clothes, blankets for the tsunami donation. We were supposed to drop off at SP Convention Centre but they were already packing up to ship out. Next stop: Darul Salam. The lecturer told us that it was a 100 metres ahead of SP. We were scouting along the stretch and it was until we made a U-turn, it was just across the road. We stopped and the guys just came straight out with trolleys. Very helpful people.

Big mistake: I was extremely careless. While cooking my instant noodles, i turned the fire down but the flames went out. Somehow, I continued adding stuff and left my noodles to cool. Ten minutes later, I heard my sis shouting. I forgot to turn off the gas. The kitchen smelled of gas and everyone ran in. It became a perfect opportunity for my mom. She did the usual lecturing and begin to tell my dad about past minor stuff (not as serious as this). I was banging my head about my carelessness. I could have killed the family if not for my sis. For the rest of the day, she went on picking little things to get at me. Adding 'irresponsible' to 'useless' in front of my name. I already feel beat up about it until now. It wasn't like me to make a mistake like this. Damn.

1 January 2005
The skies cried so hard yesterday but i appreciate the slight blue skylight hiding behind the dark clouds. It's the first in 6 days. I really hope that the gloom will clear so that I can swim. I need the sun to keep me warm, it's too cold to swim.

No resolutions. Don't really believe in them. I just set things that I have to do.

1. Keep up with the eat healthy, exercise, saving up for school plan, get more sleep, but this time, control the napping.
2. Do some planning for the 'after poly' life
3. Be closer to loved ones. Hang out with friends more often cos this might be my last year in singapore if everything works out for the overseas studies
4. 21 years of age. With greater power, come greater responsibilities. Nah...just be more responsible.
5. Do good.

I'm still procrastinating in research schools. Guilty. Only being able to come up with one school. ECU (Edith Cowen University). Somehow I feel pretty set on doing communication design. My design is not that good but somehow I would like to cultivate it. I like design. Believe it or not, I wanted to do music before I joined poly. Somewhere in poly life, it diverted to design. But it'll be nice to practise it outside of school. I want to learn to play drums like Travis from Blink 182. I just know that there'll be alot of changes in 2005. I'm gonna enjoy my last semester with my friends. After that, the guys will be paying their debt to the society/government and the girls be doing different things.

Happy new year!